Hello? 

i belive this might be my first 2025 blog update?? 

I know I did a tiny update when I wrote the ‘A Silent Voice’ review.  It’s personally my favourite review blog so far.

As with most reviews, I im super interested in your thoughts on these stories and different perspectives.

The only memorable thing this year was right at the beginning, meeting up with my brother, seeing my niece. Also, my best friend, who recently became a new parent! Which was AMAZING!  A scarce chance that all three ‘old friends’ meet up in one space.  As we got older, that’s becoming such a rare moment in our lives.

That was February!

I feel like im rephrasing myself a little, but I think I’m gonna get the text from the other post, because he said it pretty perfectly. 

‘….. I also made the same changes, ‘professionally, with my timetable mostly free! After 14? Years. Which is a MASSIVE CHANGE for me. However, with that change and ZERO ‘family support’, I had to adjust to my new ‘lifestyle’, doing 99% of EVERYTHING! It took me a while, but I figured things out and established my own little system.’

Also, with this change, I decided to ‘retire’ from snooker. ( or at least put a pause button).  As always, the videos are still up on YT if anyone’s interested. 

 Honestly, the snooker change felt the oddest on me.  Something I did EVERY DAY (or most days) for 12/13 years to finally say to myself, “That’s it, time to ‘call for retirement’! 

To put things kindly:

It’s been a bumpy ride to say the least.

Everything I just said happened around Easter time.

Moving past Easter…… I have been sitting here for a while now, and I believe that I have nothing to update.

Haha, I think that’s it! 

A timetable change and my ‘retirement’! And seeing friends and family at the start of the year. 

No wonder I haven’t felt anything about 2025!

😵‍💫

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Thursday 11th and Friday 12th of December,

I realise this is a bit random, but I feel like I NEED to write something to get it out of my system, so please bear with me! 

One more thing, YEARS AGO I wrote a blog called “The Harsh Reality”, (I believe it was my 2nd blog I ever wrote!)  and back then I was feeling lost mainly because of my need to be happy 100% of the time & my …… limitations of disability. 

All of a sudden, I’ve been feeling something similar, however, nothing to do with my limitations, but more so the “struggles” of being in my 30s and how SEEING EVERYONE seems to have it all together.

(I understand that social media shows the best side and that sometimes it’s not 100% true all the time. But it still hit me with the feels, nevertheless.)

However, after seeing everyone do the same AMAZING things. Either travelling or taking daring adventures. And some people are starting new families. ……

Or

Even got married.

I think the marriage photos tugged at my heartstrings—more than I expected. 

 It’s a strange, complex of emotions… of course, im happy to see tiny glimpses of everyone doing incredible things. 

But I’m lying to say that one of the emotions is a hint of ‘sadness’/’sorrow’/’dismay’(I’m not sure which one.) 

 Or

 even jealousy. 

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It feels SO DUMB that I think this way!  

I don’t know whether it’s the cards I’ve been dealt or a sudden change in my current living situation.

I saw somewhere that if you’re in your 30s and you see everyone else ‘thriving’ in life, and yet you feel ‘behind, it is pretty common?

But

It still stings! 

😢

Okay, everything I needed to get off my chest!

Let’s move on! 

……..

My only saving grace is reading and reviewing books for the blog. I have written a review of my first impressions for every book on the site.

 For the most part, I enjoy every book that I read. (They were 1 or 2, I super struggle with!) 

Here are the books that I read this year: (They might be a couple of books I forgot!)  

 

After reading Eric, I was burned out from reading. 

I was so confused by the book, and I needed a break from the fantasy tropes. I focused on other things for a bit, but I quickly got bored and craved another book/story, and I plan to do another writing project. Then I come across: 

If you want to read the whole review, please click the link to follow my journey. Writing this review took me a long time and was at times tiring, but I loved every minute of it. 

That’s all!

If you made it to the end. Thank you!  Have a merry Christmas and a happy New Year!  

I would love to say I hope 2026 will be better; however, if it’s anything like 2025, it’s gonna be another tough, struggle-filled year for me!   

Lastly, I do a cheeky plug for my book! Heres the link: